Usually That Someone Turns Out To Be Me……

“I got to know you now, we may never meet again.I got to know you now and then.” is the chorus to “Know You Now” by the late Amy Winehouse. It’s a short simple song that is very light and leaves the meaning behind the lyrics for interpretation. I tend to over analyze things to the point that it begins to sound foolish.

The meaning I was able to take from this particular song to use in my life: Get to know someone first. You can always sleep with someone later on. Build a meaningful relationship, because meaningful relationships aren’t built on one night stands. However, it’s not always the case when it comes to me.

Usually that someone turns out to be me, unfortunately, I’m a little boy crazy. We all have our vices and flaws, there could be many things worse than being boy crazy, am I right? Sometimes I wonder, did this boy crazy obsession come about because I missed out in high school or college. Nope. Kind of just means I’m a slut….I’m kidding Mom!!!

It’s weird I don’t really ever want to be attached to someone with a title unless I know it’s real. At the same time, I never felt like I would be that twenty-something year old not in a relationship. I haven’t had a relationship in just about 3 years. That isn’t a long time by any means but it’s still pretty long when you factor things in that you can do as a couple.

I like the freedom that being single allows me in a sense. I’m free to date whomever and learn what I like and don’t like. I dislike the behaviors that come from it, such as sleeping around. Romp, Shag, Fuck, Sex, Diddle, etc the list could go on forever, things that I prefer to do in a relationship.

I’m not promiscuous, I believe in monogamy. However, I found myself adapting into these behaviors that were almost downright man whoreish. If I was out on a date, it seemed like nobody really wanted to get to know me, they just wanted to get to know me enough to get in my pants. Not to say I’m not to blame for that as well, because I mean I make decisions but at least wait a few dates. I believe there are other factors that are involved with this as well.

I take a look at most of my friends and they are couples. Couples that have been together since either high school or college. I think also the stand offish attitude of the typical Bostonians definitely doesn’t factor in well. Everyone is trying to either out do the other or just ignore you for other reasons(that’s another blog)!

Weird thing,this guy wanted to date and he asked me if I wanted to be in a monogamous relationship but allow for various sexual partners to be introduced!!!!(Entirely different blog in the making but it’s something to think about)

But back to the real story at hand, being a man whore is far from cute. It’s not rewarding at all, I personally was feeling lost. I wasn’t able to see with clarity on what I actually wanted from a person anymore. One thing I will state: I do not regret any of my experiences. Life is too short to regret anything. Everything in life is a lesson and what you’re willing to comprehend from that lesson is up to you. I try to learn the lesson and better myself. It isn’t always a perfect science, it takes time. Be patient.

It’s really beautiful when a relationship just has simplicity around all the flaws involved

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DreIzMe

"Most Likely To Be Ambivert" is the best way to describe me. Approaching 30 with kindness and hoping she does the same. Boston based hair stylist, best friend, wardrobe consultant, student of the world, etc., Welcome!

2 thoughts on “Usually That Someone Turns Out To Be Me……”

  1. I definitely agree with you, believing in monogamy is something I believe in too but its hard to not succumb to adapting to the norm of fooling around. My intentions are to find someone to be monogamous but loved your post.

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    1. Thanks so much! It truly is hard to not conform. I find that a lot of people settle into FWB type relationships with multiple people and what happens is that they end up hurt because there are too many feelings going around. Even though, it seems like a good idea to date multiple people at once to find that “one” it’s never really a good idea.

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