One Last Pair

“One last pair of shoes.”

Nike SB Dunks Concepts
Nike SB Dunks Concepts

The last thing I need is another pair of shoes. I don’t. It’s absurd. However, this pair of shoes is going to symbolize something meaningful. These shoes are going will be the beginning of a new chapter. I’ll actually probably never wear them because of how much they will mean to me.

I’ve often avoided situations where I thought I would fail. An easy wait to protect yourself from the pain that comes with it. I never really felt mediocre until recently. Wondering where this was coming from, I took a hard look at certain things and realized.

You never know if you’re making the right decision. It could be a decision you regret. You never know if it’s the right time. Timing isn’t always key. We all have fears that we have to conquer and it just becomes harder as you get older.

These were the last shoes I decided on purchasing for awhile
These were the last shoes I decided on purchasing for a while

Am I making the best decision? Am I going to be happy? Is it going to be hard? Is it the right time? Who the hell knows because I sure don’t. All I really know is that I’ll have regrets. Regrets eat you alive more than any other feeling.

Don’t Have Regrets.

Turning 30

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Truth

I know I’ve only been 30 for about 17 days, 10 hours and 45 minutes, however, I think that gives me a little authority on the subject.

Everybody tells you that it isn’t bad turning 30. In fact, they go one step further and say it’s like any other birthday. That’s a boldface lie. It’s slightly different because now you happen your an official adult. No more milestone birthdays to make transition through decades easier. Ethan Hawke, Growing up, old, 30

All jokes aside though turning 30 wasn’t as bad as I had envisioned. It was totally fine. If your definition is crying at weird moments throughout the weekend then it was totally fine. Not only did I cry during “Sing Street”, I cried at dinner, I cried after dinner before bed, I cried the following morning and I’m sure I cried some more. I’m placing blame on the new moon and Saturn’s retrograde.

New Lessons: Things I Learned In My 20s

  1. It’s going to hurt. You will cry. It’s an excuse to buy shoes. Don’t let heartbreak harden your heart. Just because you like that person today, doesn’t mean you will in a few months. Have fun but try with caution. If you happen to find your soul mate, good for you. Every failed relationship is a way to look at yourself and see what it is you want and how to go about seeking it in positive ways.

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    Gretchen was actually really fetch about this
  2. You have to fail just once at something. If you fail, “Dust yourself off and try again.” -Aaliyah. Failure is one of the greatest teachers we can learn from. I’ve had my share of failures and it took a long time to finally come to a place where I’m okay with them. Without those failures, I don’t think I’d appreciate the lessons I’ve learned in the past few years. Check your ego at the door. patrick dempsey, can't buy me love, amanda petersen, 80s, movies, love, paula abdul
  3. The family you choose is a wonderful thing. People come into your life at particular moment, sometimes they leave at particular moments. As you grow older, you want people in your group that are supportive, have similar ideals as yourself. You don’t have to be friends with everyone. It’s not satisfying. Some of these friends, you’ve shared tough and happy times with. Don’t take them for granted.
  4. Time waits for no one. It’s precious. Learn it. Live it. Love it. No, I mean that. If people want to throw their bad energy into the harmony your trying to create, it’s really okay to walk away from those situations. You are in charge of your life and happiness. Your boss was fine before your arrival and he’ll be fine after your departure. However, if it comes to friendships, you should grow a set of balls and learn to talk about the issues before throwing away friendships. Communicate before you eradicate.

    Lo Bosworth, Lauren Conrad, Laguna Beach, The hills, crying, get over it, growing up, 30s
    Really though?
  5. You start to appreciate yourself more than you thought you did. Spending time alone doesn’t bother you as much. Learning new hobbies actually seems like a fun idea. In an ideal world, the more we knew who we are and the more we love ourselves, the more you start to live life.
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  6. You never stop learning. People are always evolving. You come to a point where you realize, nobody really knows how to do this called “Adulting.” It’s just everybody trying to find their own path and dealing with the bumps along the way.
    Winona Ryder, Christian Slater, heathers, 80s, growing up, 30
    This is life.

    In essence, it’s not bad turning 30. A little scary because no two paths are alike. Keep making new mistakes, living when you can, creating memories and you’ll move forward.

    Nothing a sheet mask and a glass of wine can’t fix, right?

London 2015

“There is nowhere else like London. Nothing at all, anywhere.” – Vivienne Westwood

I completely agree with that statement. If you haven’t been, it’s definitely a place to put on the list of places to visit. I was extremely fortunate and am forever grateful for the chance to have gone recently to London and get a taste of what this amazing city has to offer!

You could say that I’m difficult when it comes to food. Very difficult. However, being in a new country it really was exciting to try new culinary dishes that I might not try on my own. You know what? I actually enjoyed it too!

It was really difficult to get back on the plane to come back home but you honestly know where life is going to take you….so until next time London!

 

Life Lesson: I Have Too Many Shoes

All these shoes in the world and they need a happy home. I can provide that.
All these shoes in the world and they need a happy home. I can offer that.

Disclaimer: One can never own too many shoes. It isn’t possible. It’s an oxymoron. If someone tells you that you own too many shoes, say “Goodbye.” You don’t need that negativity in your life.

I bitch. I worry. I over think. I’m not organized in the traditional sense of the word. I could go on and on. One thing I’ve learned as of lately and I literally mean as of lately, is that the only thing I really have control over is where I am going and how I’m going to get there.

It’s really easy to get into a creative rut and it’s easy to stay there whether you want to or not. You think that you are trying everything to get out of it but your approach is really wrong. I learned that I can’t look at the past failures and correct those. I have to look at past failures and realize what went wrong, accept that, move on to the next chapter. Getting stuck in those failures does nothing but deter you from the greatness that you are suppose to do in life. I know I sound like a Oprah Winfrey episode but I’m serious.

Everyone has a chapter in their life where things didn’t go as smoothly as they wanted them to. It wouldn’t be life without these bumps.

Honestly, this post had nothing to do with shoes except that I own too many shoes and that is a life lesson. Don’t ya think?

Music Monday: Spring Is Here

All I Need Is My Headphones
All I Need Is My Headphones

Would it surprise you one bit if I told you that this past winter I spent the better part of it hibernating and listening to music nonstop when the opportunity presented itself. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again “Music makes me happy!”

I’m sure I’m not the only one who fixates on a song and listens on a constant repeat? It seems pretty normal to some degree to have songs that actually make you feel good that you listen to on constant auto-repeat until the song suddenly deletes itself off your phone!!

Current Obsessions:

  • Partynextdoor “Relax With Me”
  • Mayer Hawthorne “Reach Out Richard”
  • Ty Dolla $ign feat. Tinashe & Charlie XCX “Drop That Kitty”
  • Major Lazer feat. Kreesha “Dance Bling”
  • TWRK “Helicopter”
  • Blackbear feat. G. Eazy “90210”
  • Sevyn Streeter feat. Chris Brown “Don’t Kill The Fun”
  • Tchami feat. Stacy Barthe “Afterlife”
  • Tchami feat. Kaleem Taylor “Promesses”
  • Tajan “Be With U”
  • Kid Ink feat. Dej Loaf “Be Real”
  • Dej Loaf “Try Me”
  • ODESZA feat. Shy Girls “All We Need(Giraffage Remix)”
  • Beyonce “7/11(DJ Mustard Remix)”
  • Syn Cole “Miami 82(Kygo Remix)”
  • Basement Jaxx feat. ETML “Never Say Never”
  • SNBRN feat. Kerli “Raindrops”
  • Kaskade & John Dahlback feat. Sansa “A Little More”
  • Little Dragon “Paris(Totally Enormous Extinct Dinosaurs Holiday Edit)”
  • Maya Jane Coles “What They Say”
  • Skrillex & Kill Th Noise feat. Fatman Scoop and Michael Angelakos “Recess”

If there’s a song you’d think I’d like send it my way, I’d love to hear it!

 

Middle Finger In The Air

“I’m having one of those days where my middle finger is answering all the questions.”

Life is far too short to deal with bullshit. People spend way too much time and energy trying play games. FUCK THE GAMES. FUCK THE BULLSHIT! BE REAL! BE TRUTHFUL! FUCK BEING FAKE!

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UR FAKENESS!

 

 

 

Is It Possible To Be Too Inspired?

I'm so inspired at the moment that I'm feeling to inspired. It's kind of frustrating because I can't pick a focal point. I can't focus on one simple thing, just a bunch of inspiration and can't seem to get into gear. I have too much to look forward to this summer and upcoming fall that I wish it were kind of here already so that I could be pursuing new endeavors. Ya know?!

Change is good though, so I'm welcoming it with open arms. I want to embrace it. September will roll around before I know and then it'll be time to swing into action.

TO DO LIST: 

Get learners permit again.

Learn to drive.

Pass driver’s license test.

Save. Save. Save. Save. Save. Save. Save.

Enjoy summer!

 

Finding Balance

Amen
Amen

“Problems arise in that one has to find a balance between what people need from you and what you need for yourself.”–Jessye Norman

I’m so glad I found that quote. How do you find the balance?  No, really someone tell me. I’m on a quest for different coping mechanisms so that I don’t internalize things. It can be such a draining habit to internal everything that I would absorb throughout the day or even over the years started clouding my energy and creating an air of negativity. As I begin a new chapter in life, I want actually give my all without any kind of energy looming over.

True
True

I keep telling myself that I’m going to try yoga. I keep looking at Lululemon thinking “I would have the cutest outfit for yoga.” Although, I’m pretty sure that’s not the point of why people go. So Sunday morning, I spent most of the morning reading different perspectives. One of my clients/friend/fellow blogger has her own business and blog which focuses on yoga, self-love, Chakras, etc.I highly recommend it. Jenny Ravikumar, she’ll Skype with you while working on your plan.. No really. Take a look for yourself. It really inspired me to take this new chapter on in a different approach. A bit of self-love never hurt anybody, right?

How do you find balance in life?

For A Season……For A Reason

Friends are a lot like clothing. Best friends are there forever like that sweatshirt you lounge around in every season with your mud masque and hair tied up cleaning the house. People you know are there for a season, kind of like mass-produced clothing that  you find in the stores that changes every two weeks.

I have more clothing then I actually wear . I have more shoes than I actually wear . I know who my true friends are. I know who my seasonal friends are. As I was getting my items ready for donating, I got to thinking, is it time to clean house with my friends? How many of friends actually take the time to actually care about me like I care about them? So why not clean house?

The best friendships in life are the kind when you have those periods of constant communication, constant contact and then you have those periods of distance but as soon as you reconnect, it’s as if nothing was ever missing. I like those a lot. It’s not overwhelming, you don’t feel like your being smothered. It’s an organic and natural cycle.I do think that seasonal friends are sometimes needed. However, as I get older, I realize that seasons change and I prefer my seasons to have a little more longevity.

It makes it hard to know which items to get rid of and which items that I really find are worth keeping close to me. That’s the great thing about life. Letting go one, to make room for another. When it comes to my shoes, that’ll take some time to figure that out.

Dre

Fashionably Responsible

NEW YEAR’S EVE:

So I wanted to travel extremely comfortable on my way to Los Angeles. As I mentioned in the earlier blog, I wore my new boots, for the reason that they are comfortable and I knew it was going to snow a ton. Guess what happened? A big black scuff mark in the middle of the boot because some girl didn’t take the time to pay attention. She back stepped on the train for no reason whatsoever. Guess I should have been a little more Fashionably Responsible.

2013 TAUGHT ME:

I really love blogging. I love having an arena in which I can share myself and what makes me with everyone who decides to read. One of the hardest things I find that comes across my plate when it comes to blogging is just what is my blog about. I love talking about music, pop culture, fashion and the personal developments that I go through as young twentysomething year old.

JUST ANOTHER DAY IN THE LIFE OF:

One of the things that I noticed when I started blogging, was the focus of my blog was all over the place. Mainly because I was thrilled finally to have a blog but I wanted to take the time to figure out what it was that readers liked about me. Towards the end of the year, I discovered that people care about the personal development that I was going through but they really responded well to my views on fashion(recovering and always relapsing shopaholic).

FASHIONABLY RESPONSIBLE:

Fashionably Responsible, well, I’ll be honest. I like the way it sounds. I’m not very responsible when it comes to shopping, I do it and I do it a lot. Now, I’m on a mission to justify everything that I buy because as I get older I realize that I should care more conscientious about things like that. Make purchases that will last a while and aren’t just a fad. Anyhoo……